by Elara
My life is a tale of discovery
Of unraveling this smothering tapestry
Of lies draped over me
“You’re a cishet boy and there are only two genders”
wrong
“Sex is as important a human need as food and water”
wrong
“There is only sexual attraction and all other forms of attraction are aspects of sexual attraction”
wrong
“You’ll like it once you try it”
wrong
Now I see
I break through the veil of
Cishetallo-normative lies
I’m trans, asexual, lesbian, nonbinary
But I still don’t understand everything
Split attraction
I learn,
I separate romantic from nonexistent sexual
Aesthetic attraction
Said to be part of romantic attraction
But I see
It doesn’t have to be
I don’t have to want to date someone
Not to find them beautiful
Aesthetic attraction
Does not
Create
Romantic attraction
Not for me
I need a deeper connection
To know them first
And now
I can see
Another part of me
This journey is beautiful
Every day I become more me
I am demiromantic too
And I am not broken