Romantic

by Elara

My life is a tale of discovery

Of unraveling this smothering tapestry 

Of lies draped over me

“You’re a cishet boy and there are only two genders” 

wrong

“Sex is as important a human need as food and water” 

wrong

“There is only sexual attraction and all other forms of attraction are aspects of sexual attraction” 

wrong

“You’ll like it once you try it” 

wrong

Now I see

I break through the veil of

Cishetallo-normative lies

I’m trans, asexual, lesbian, nonbinary

But I still don’t understand everything

Split attraction

I learn, 

I separate romantic from nonexistent sexual

Aesthetic attraction

Said to be part of romantic attraction

But I see

It doesn’t have to be

I don’t have to want to date someone

Not to find them beautiful

Aesthetic attraction

Does not

Create

Romantic attraction

Not for me

I need a deeper connection

To know them first

And now 

I can see

Another part of me

This journey is beautiful

Every day I become more me

I am demiromantic too

And I am not broken